Home again

Well, I'm back from Scotland. I have a lovely time. I ate more than I should have, but didn't go COMPLETELY wild. I weigh 182 now, which is basically only a one pound gain. My "official" weigh-in of the week isn't until tomorrow, so who knows what will happen. The thing I'm most excited about is that I haven't had one of those "Awww, screw-it!" moments. I started Sparking again as soon as I got home.

I also resisted the urge to stock up on British chocolates, OMG, I love Galaxy beyond words. I DID scarf one on the plane ride home, but it is gone now.

I LOVED being thin(well, Thin-er) for the trip. I had so much fun! It's been so long since I've been to a bar and been hit on! We met up with a gang of Scottish firefighters and they were fabulous. I can't wait to go back again!

Motivation was waiting for me when I got home. I had returned a pair of size 16 Victoria's Secret pants because they were (*gasp!*) too big. I decided to order a 12 and, guess what? They FIT! I wore them yesterday while I delivered gifts. I am DEFINTIELY loving fitting into my clothes. I don't think that there is a single thing in my closet now that I can't wear.

As regards Scotland goal- I had a scale reading (which I was unable to subsequently duplicate) of 178 the morning that I left. I immediately re-weighed and was still 181, so I don't REALLY think I've gained 4 pounds on the trip. Nevertheless, I allowed it as a "met my goal" for Scotland. The new goal is 164 (a.k.a. BMI of "Normal" weight) for New York at the end of November. Time to buckle down again!

Almost There

I leave for Scotland in 4 days! I am SO CLOSE to my goal for this! I was only down 1 pound this week, but I think that it is partially attributable to bloat. I want 179 so bad I can- pardon the expression- taste it.

My brother told me that I was the talk of the Courthouse today. Apparently, one of the bailiff's asked my brother "Why I was getting so skinny" and one of the our fellow attorneys opined that I must be getting divorced. It gave me a laugh- down to SINGLE size ;) !

Fudg'ems

Well, Domino's actually answered my questions about Fudg'ems, their new form of crack.

It's NOT pretty:

Dear <>:

Thank you for taking the time to contact the Domino's Pizza Customer Care Team.
Please find the nutritional information you requested below.
Sincerely,
Catrina

Domino's Pizza Customer Care T.E.A.M.



Oven-Baked Brownie Squares

10 Pieces Per Order/ 2 Pieces Per Serving With 1 Fudge Brownie Sauce Dipping Cup

Amount Per Serving

Nutrient 2 Pieces Fudge Brownie Dipping Sauce (1.5 oz)

Gram Weight (g) 40 43

Calories (kcal) 160 110

Protein (g) 2 2

Carbohydrates (g) 22 27

Dietary Fiber (g) 1 2

Total Sugars (g) 12 21

Fat (g) 7 1

Saturated Fat (g) 1.5 0.5

Mono Fat (g) 1.5 0

Poly Fat (g) 3.0 0

Trans Fatty Acid (g) 0 0

Cholesterol (mg) 15 0

Vitamin A - %DV* 2 0

Vitamin C - %DV* 0 0

Calcium -%DV* 2 2

Iron - %DV* 10 10

Sodium (mg) 95 75

Calories from Fat (kcal) 60 10

*Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet. Your daily values may be higher or lower depending on your calorie needs.



The product listed above, when made with approved Domino's Pizza ingredients and portions, will provide the nutritional composition as indicated. Information may vary slightly depending on location and supplier base.

Ingredients

Double Chocolate Brownie Bites
Brownie Cubes {Sugar, Eggs, Bleached Wheat Flour, Cottonseed Oil, Margarine [Liquid and Partially Hydrogenated Soybean Oil, Water, Salt, Soy Lecithin, Vegetable Mono & Diglycerides, Sodium Benzoate (preservative), Citric Acid, Artificial Flavor, Beta Carotene Color, Vitamin A Palmitate], Chocolate Chips [Sugar, Chocolate Liquor, Cocoa Butter, Soya Lecithin, Ground Vanilla Beans], Cocoa Powder, Baking Powder [Sodium Acid Pyrophosphate, Sodium Bicarbonate, Corn Starch, Monocalcium Phosphate], Vanilla Flavoring [Natural and Artificial Flavor, Propylene Glycol, Corn Syrup, Water, Ethyl Alcohol, Caramel Color], Salt}, Vegetable Oil (Soybean and/or Canola), Wheat Flour, Water. Contains 2% or less of Artificial Flavor, Cocoa, Dried Yeast, Egg Whites, Leavening (Sodium Bicarbonate, Sodium Aluminum Phosphate, Sodium Acid Pyrophosphate), Partially Hydrogenated Soybean Oil, Salt, Sugar, Sunflower Oil.

Contains: Eggs, Wheat, Milk, Soy

Powdered Sugar
Modified Food Starch, Sugar, Sucralose

Fudge Brownie Dipping Sauce

High Fructose Corn Syrup, Corn Syrup (Contains Sulfites), Sweetened Condensed Milk (Concentrated Whole Milk, Sugar), Alkalized Cocoa Powder, Water, Modified Corn Starch, Caramel Color, Natural and Artificial Flavors, Salt, Potassium Sorbate (added as preservative).

Contains: Milk

The Dream is Alive

182.

I am wearing a HUGE, satisfied smile right now.

182.

That means that I have two weeks to lose 3 pounds- EMINENTLY do-able.

There is NOTHING like success for motivation, nothing
Of course, there is nothing like failure to make you want to quit. Sunday morning, my usual weigh-in day, my scale was still stuck at 184.5. (I KNOW that I didn't magically lose 2.5 pounds overnight- it was a lucky break on water-weight (although, I've confirmed the 182 since my initial reading), but it was still heartening) and I wanted to throw in the towel. It is amazing how one small setback can make you willing to throw away everything you've achieved so far!

One of my main problems with losing weight is my need for instant gratification. It is hard for me to see that I lost "0.5" pounds one week and still remember that it is FIFTY pounds over several months- that if I keep going,even at that slow rate, I'll reach my goal by this time next year. It is even harder to keep in mind that if I QUIT, I'll probably swell up larger than I was before.

I'm really good at working toward goals, but less good at enjoying where I am in any given moment. Now, for example, I'm nowhere near anyone's definition of thin. I still have little fat rolls in my tummy when I sit down. I still hate the shape of my butt- but I DON'T have double chins. The undersides of my arms are toned. I can zip my knee boots all the way up. I have to remember all those little triumphs. Even if my scale doesn't read 179 when I get on the plane to Scotland, It doesn't read 235 either! I might not be wearing size 30 Paige jeans- but I'm not struggling to zip size 16 Gap jeans either (I'm falling out of my 14's now!).

That said, I need to keep my eye on the prize. When I thought I had stalled AGAIN, I looked into some rut busters, and this is what I am working on this week:

1. Cutting WAY back on Diet Coke (I tried to go cold turkey, but my head hurt so badly I couldn't walk. I'm going to start slow: 1-2 cans per day (understand that I WAS drinking 6-8!) and see if I can cut it out when I get back from my trip. The point is to DRINK ALL MY WATER!!!

2. Upping my fiber. I've bought a fiber supplement although, obviously, I'm trying to get most of the fiber from my food. I read the horror stories ( which are an urban legend ) abuot John Wayne and Elvis and feared for my poor digestive track! I think I was averaging about 4-10 grams of fiber per day before I really started to pay attention!

3. Up my dairy intake. There is so much interesting research about dairy consumption and weight loss. Yes, I've heard the rumors that it is all funded by the dairy council, and I take it with a grain of salt, but I figure it is worth a try? I need more calcium anyhow, and I do love dairy. My plan is to start the day with either low-fat yogurt or light cream cheese, have some kind of cheese at lunch, and finish my day with either some fat free ice cream, or skim milk with chocolate syrup. That will keep each serving around 100 calories and 3-6 grams of fat (well, except for the cheese at lunch. If I get a little more fat with that, so be it). We shall see how it works.